I’ve been suffering mentally for as long as I’ve known myself.
It only got harder.
If i knew back then what i know now, life would be so different but I’m grateful for the experience & the lessons it taught me because i grew in knowledge & power. I now accept all that i went through and believe i had to go through them to get a better understanding of life and myself.
I am the author of my own life and i understand that life doesn’t happen to me, it happens for me.
I’ve made it my highest priority to heal myself without distracting myself but instead allowing myself to feel everything, accepting & currently learning to let go.
Ive always been told talking things out is best, which I’ve always had trouble doing. For years I’ve been bottling everything up which did result into depression.
I grew up in toxic house hold which is a humbling experience. Many lessons came from it & I’m grateful. I now appreciate it because i can lead my own family in a better path.
Also everyday is a new chance at life & it’s improving.
I had to deal with heartbreaks which became a cycle because i weren’t learning the lessons put out for me. They all ended the same way, it even got to a point where the duration of the relationships was the same. In some way they were all similar to each other but had their own ways of teaching me something new.
I had to deal with rape in order to appreciate my body more than I THOUGHT i did, I appreciate everyone who was involved as it has widen my understanding & perspective of people but most importantly I appreciate my loved ones who stayed by me. I learnt that not everyone has pure intentions no matter how you see them or how you are towards them. It showed me the level of understanding i have with myself.
I had to deal with a violent partner in order to know that a man that puts his hands on you doesn’t mean love. I once glamourised physical abuse because i witness a family member go through it and thought it was love, it has widen my knowledge on mental health and i left the victim mentality that I’m the only one going through it & that every action causes a reaction (also goes to show you that manifestation is REAL).
I had to deal with homelessness in order to appreciate my space, my own company & privacy. It taught me to be grateful for what i have right now in order to get everything i desire, also to take accountability of my own actions.
I’m proud of my progress as it could have been worse but I’m forever grateful for how far I’ve come and the obstacles i overcame.
I hope i gave those of you who are suffering mentally hope that there is always better on the other side but it must start from you! Believe in yourself enough to know that you can overcome ANYTHING and there is light at the end of the tunnel. You are not what happened to you, dont make your downfall define you. You’re greater than that.
Stay Fabulous, always 🤍